I'm kind of over Joseph, to be honest. I texted him a few weeks after our last conversation, only to be greeted by complete silence. Sometime in March, I was randomly visited by two members of the YSA Elders' Quorum Presidency, one of whom was a mutual friend of Joseph's. Upon my inquiry, he shared that he hadn't heard a thing from Joseph since before he moved. That solidified for me that Joseph simply wasn't the type to maintain a friendship unless he was right there. So I'm moving on.
It helped that I have had several positive experiences, several of which included massage exchanges, with guys on Grindr. Although I am disappointed that on a few accounts (actually, virtually all of them), those points of contact didn't result in a lasting friendship for whatever reason, my worth and masculinity were affirmed in positive ways, all while respecting and upholding the law of chastity.
Strangely, that has made me feel like dating in earnest. I say "strangely", because "dating" for me always connotes dating a woman, and it's quite interesting, as I see it, that such experiences would lead me to desire to seek out my wife more proactively. I posted an e-mail to a North Star forum to lightheartedly share my exasperation:
Hey! So I've been thinking quite a bit lately about dating. Although Grindr seems like a sess pool on most days, some of the few times I have actually met any guys in person have reinforced that I have positive qualities that could be seen as attractive by someone else.